Today, this page is in blank and it must continue like that, in blank. I feel I am not able to find the words to express my state of mind. Life has passed so quickly that sometimes I catch myself older, afraid and tired of dreaming, wishing and wanting.
Where is The God of David and Solomon? Am I smaller than them, by any chance? Where is the God of Abraham and Isaac? Don't I deserve Thy trust? Where is the God of Moses and Joseph? Can't I have Thy mercy?
Like a warrior I let go of my life for Thee. Everything I am, everything I believe in, everything I wish is just to serve Thee.
I am loyal to Thee. But, where art thou, Almighty?
I deserve Thy abandon, Thy scorn and punishment, because I was born from Thee?
Thou art my light , my harbour, my life, my breath. Lord, I beg Thee, please don't abandon me to men's hands, because I am not as strong as Thy son Jesus and Thou conceived me as an ordinary human being who loves Thee so much.
Amen